Whoever undertakes to set himself up as a judge of Truth and Knowledge is shipwrecked by the laughter of the gods.

-Albert Einstein

Humility is defined as a “modest opinion or estimate of one’s own importance” by Dictionary.com.  In a more comprehensive article about the word, The Catholic Encyclopedia describes humility as “that which is abject, ignoble, or of poor condition, as we ordinarily say, not worth much… understood also in the sense of afflictions or miseries, which may be inflicted by external agents… [and] A virtue by which a man knowing himself as he truly is, abases himself.”

Although I had already written about humility, I did not feel as though I had completely grasped the essence of the word, mostly, because as I mentioned in the post, I was struggling to come to terms with being humble!  In truth I didn’t quite understand the meaning of the word.  However, I have come to notice that the universe answers me more often than not when I ask a question, and the universe seems to have been pointing at “humility” for the past few weeks.  It all started with a dream in which I was listening to one of Lady Gaga’s songs backwards and she kept saying the word “hubris” over and over again.

Honestly, it had hardly ever occurred to me that I could be wrong.  Not that I was always right, I just was not wrong.  However, such an attitude is limited in its scope and ability to look beyond itself.  Life requires an attitude of curiosity if you are to see the endless possibilities hidden amidst the smallest details.  “Being wrong” is a death blow to the ego precisely because the mind believes itself to be the charioteer, the director of the orchestra, the master.  However, life has a way of showing the ego that things are typically not as it had planned, for there are many-many situations, things, and people outside of its control.

Once I realized that I could be wrong, and was most likely wrong, it was as though a heavy burden was lifted off my shoulders.  After all, knowing it all is to  forge a battle that is never to be won against the “gods” for which the consequences are akin to Atlas’ punishment–to carry the world upon your shoulders.  This is a prime example of how classical mythology is present in my everyday life–be it noted that the meaning of the myth might be completely different for different people.

In addition to accepting my own shortcomings, I found humility to go hand in hand with the energy of gratitude.  For one, I am extremely fortunate to be able to have the experience of having a “job” during such difficult economic times as we live in.  It is humbling to know that I have it better than others and yet my life is as it should be. This brings me to another point.  Living with heart means that the mind is not the sole director, but a co-“director” (for lack of a better word) of a much grander scheme.  Said grander scheme, in fact, is so large, and the ego so small in comparison, that one can only feel humbled.

I also wanted to touch on the idea of self-love and self-appreciation.  I appreciate the definitions set forth by the Catholic Encyclopedia listed above, but I cannot help to know that as small as I am compared to the grander scheme of life, I am by no means “abject”, or of “poor condition”.  As mentioned above, I find myself to be very blessed and fortunate and believe that my existence as a human being at this moment in time is also necessary.  Therefore, humility is taking the middle path–knowing that I am small and having a modest opinion of myself, while also knowing that my contributions to the world are important and I am  making a difference.  It is a fine line to walk indeed, and keeping a balance between the two is imperative in order to move past humility onto the last two virtues of the heart:  understanding and valor.

The previous argument begets that I ask myself yet another question:  what happens when it is not me, per say, who is making a difference, but that which lives through me? For I have come to realize that there is a well of wisdom that I am somehow able to channel, a wisdom that I cannot claim as my own.

And that, my friends, is humility.

What about you?  What does your experience of humility look like?


**Notice that even if you do not typically like anime/manga, you can still benefit from this post**  One of the reasons I LOVE anime/manga is because of the elements they bring together:  wonderful stories, depth and understanding of the human condition, esoteric symbolism, character development, and beautiful art–all three typically lacking in most TV shows, Hollywood movies, and Reality TV.

It’s not that it is anime and therefore you should or should not be interested in reading further, but rather I wanted to call your attention to the theme in a particular anime I recently started watching.

Ao No Exorcist (Blue Exorcist in English) is the story about two twin brothers training to become exorcists.  One of the brothers, Rin, happens to be the son of Satan–yes, you have read correctly, the “devil”–who loves being human and has turned against his darker side and has chosen to use his “demonic” powers only to protect a “gentler cause” .  Yukio, the other twin, appears to be a normal human so far, and is quite the opposite in temperament to Rin.  (Continue reading this post @ LOVINGvibration.com)



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Welcome, and thank you for stopping by my little space of heaven I have created on the NET.  We live in increasingly difficult times.  Every morning my radio wakes me up at 5:36 a.m. with constant news about the impending economic debt crisis, inclement weather across the globe, rioting and protests, unemployment due to budget cuts,  Blah-blah-blah-BLAH.  Despite the grim picture painted by NPR’s morning news, I have recently made the commitment to balance my life by focusing on the intelligence of my heart in addition to my intellectual abilities.  Therefore, I no longer see current world events as a grim predicament of our current state, but rather as a necessary step in human evolution.  The current paradigm is crumbling under its own weight for its inability to sustain itself, therefore life is calling to action those of us who are willing to give birth to a new way of life that emphasizes the wisdom of the heart and utilizes the ego as it’s ally, as opposed to an ego-based lifestyle of appearances–a lifestyle which has given way to over-consumption, over-medication, and over-pathologizing, just to name a few of our current dilemmas.  However, I believe that the darkness is always in search of the light, thus, pushing us towards a new way of being.

More than my personal opinion, through this website, you will find articles providing evidence of the science of living from the heart, as well as the philosophical assumptions of such a premise.  Ultimately, yes, the Law of Attraction plays an important role in living from the heart, and that shall be explored as well.  This is my own personal project as I myself learn about and explore the different dimensions of what it means to raise my own vibration to that of divine LOVE.

In addition, you will also find featured individuals who have the same goal of living with purpose, and resources from whom I myself have found inspiration or from whom I have learned to put words to the inherent wisdom of my heart as I learn to live by its wisdom and virtues rather than solely for the ego and its self-serving purposes.  I must also mention that the ego in itself is not evil or that one should strive to liberate oneself from ego, but rather embrace ego as the vehicle of experience.  What I am calling for is a synthesis of the intelligence of the mind and heart.

My purpose and intention for this website is to lead, and help others through what I learn and gain in wisdom to step into the higher vibrations housed in the heart–LOVE.  Living from the heart is easier said than done, but it is a path that I commit myself to following and I hope that you coming to this website means that you are too.

My vision for this website is for it to become a community of like-minded people someday, and too touch as many hearts as I possibly can and make a difference in your life.

Ah yes, I was running away.  I was running away from all I had taken for granted, from a present that no longer held any value nor promise, and most of all, I was running away from a love so intense I failed to notice I was running away from none other than myself.  And now, here I am, flipping through pages, wondering just how much longer this running will continue, and when it is that this love will finally catch up to me?

Then, I ran out of breath and could run no more.


I can’t think of a better place to begin my story than in the present, for it is the present I which is a result of all of my past actions.  So, as I sit here, flipping through pages upon pages of never-ending bureaucracy, I can’t help but wonder how it is exactly that I ended up here, in this very precise moment, staring out a 10th floor window at the Houston, TX lunch traffic on Highway 59.

Ah yes, I was running away.

I just finished watching Reality Bites, a movie that was filmed in Houston for the most part, and I honestly rather enjoyed it.  First off, I seem to have this “impossible love” syndrome, and the character played by Ethan Hawke reminded me of having been consumed in love, drunk with the madness of this love for someone who I don’t know that he felt the same way about me.  To him I dedicate a poem by Rumi I found the other day:

Sometimes I wonder, sweetest love, if you
…Were a mere dream in along winter night,
A dream of spring-days, and of golden light
Which sheds its rays upon a frozen heart;
A dream of wine that fills the drunken eye.
And so I wonder, sweetest love, if I
Should drink this ruby wine, or rather weep;
Each tear a bezel with your face engraved,
A rosary to memorize your name…
There are so many ways to call you back-
Yes, even if you only were a dream.

Houston, TX -- my current home

Impossible love aside, I loved the fact that the movie was based in Houston.  I found it sad you didn’t really get to see much of the city like you get to see in movies starring New York City or San Francisco (not to mention most movies are filmed in cities like these, this is the first time I hear of a movie made in H-town). I can’t quite put a finger on how to describe Houston to people.  It’s not NYC, it’s not San Francisco, but the city is full of hip, chic, cool people, art and so many cultures come together here as well.  Downtown is a beautiful sight (generally from afar, I hate driving through Downtown), and it’s just Houston, motherfuckingTexas. Yes the weather is awfully humid and hot during the summer, yes traffic is ridiculous… GET OVER IT and move to Artesia, NM then (I used to live there and no offense to all my fellow Artesian friends, but goD that town SUCKS).

Finally, the movie reminded me of my vow to right livelihood.  It also reminded me of a Houstonian version of SLC Punk.  Generation  X seems to have been struggling with this and I honestly feel that Generation Y is too and who knows, A through W were probably struggling with it too.  The truth is that there seems to be this cultural trend to “grow up” and “take responsibility”:  Go to school, get a car, get married and have kids.  And it’s fine!! It IS.  But there also seems to be something missing in the equation — and that is merely the individual.  The duties to society are a mask, as Jung puts it in his Two Essays in Analytical Psychology.

Most of the time I am content at work.  Then there are some days it just drives me crazy.  My veil is too think right now, and I cannot see through the screen as to what I need to do to make my dream of right livelihood come true.  And so I write.  I write away.